This post is specially written to recap the happenings of this whole year.

- Choir got silver for SYF, and i cried cos tot we could do alot better.

- Nearly went for Campus Superstar de audition but due to some people, i cant make it and i gave up the chance of going.

- The person did things that I always wanted him to do, and i rejected him.
I felt bad for wasting his time too. (sorry)

- In the first time in my 17 years of life, I moved out of my cosy home and stayed with ah Sem for nearly half a year!

- The next major issue is, of course, O levels.
But it seemed that i took it not as serious as i should be.

I have STM ever since i dread studying, i cant seemed to remember the things i ought to remember, hence i have difficulty recalling about some other happenings...
But overall, I think my performance this year is not as outstanding as the past..
Due to my indecisiveness and ignorance towards the feelings of people,
I've hurt friends and family in one way or another.
I always hate myself for being so ignorant and emotional when i shouldn't be doing that.
I wanted to change but i guessed i hadn't try a single bit.
I missed the old self when i could do anything i wanted and
things always went smoothly as i wanted them to be.
I can laugh as heartily and i dun have many troubles with friends....
I used to love the clique in primary school with Kim, Swu San and Liu Zhe...
I've no clique or best friends in Secondary and i trust myself more than other people,
cos they betrayed my trust....
I used to talk and chatter alot with even not-as-close friends...
I've become quiet and mute,
my teacher even commented that i'm a quiet student in class in the report book...
when last time my primary school teacher said i was the most talkative and sociable in class...
Is it because I had changed unknowingly?
Or is it that the environment and the people I faced are not as friendly,
and i ought to protect myself against insults and mean looks...
I cant open up my heart to friends and tell them my stuff anymore...
Even my best fren that i considered to be one, betrayed me...
This showed that people cant be trusted anymore....
I'm alone, i admit.
Friendship and love relationship to me are a fake...
People used you and run away without you when you are not needed...
I rely no one, i only need myself....
Until the day i can really open up my heart to the right person,
i shall remain quiet and unnoticeable to people...
I realised the more i grown up,
maturity forced me to accept things that i dun wished to accept...
I wished i could always stayed as a kid and never grow up,
living safely in the arms of family...
But reality is reality,
dream cant overpower reality...
I prayed that 2008 will be a smoother and successful year for me...
This is the least i could ask for...