exams and syf....|Thursday, March 29, 2007
I changed my blogskin again! haha...just feel very bored and sianx lor.... anyway, these two weeks very busy and tired seh...this week the homework are piling up...and i am still sitting down here posting entry...actually wanted to do chemistry homework de....just too lazy to do...haix...i totally lose all the motivation to study...i even thought of going to M.I to study next year..hahaha...my frens were shocked lar...maybe i am just out of my mind...but i reconsidered it...actually it is also quite a nice choice...jus falls nicely between poly and jc..i am afraid i can cope with the stressful schedule in jc and subjects combinations....as for poly, i dun tink i am suitable for it lar...i dun even have any idea which course to go for...but most importantly it's my o lvl lar...haix...my classmates are scored very well for this class test....i failed 3 suns which includes english, combined humanities and my weakest sub, physics,...i topped for biology in the whole level and this is the only sub i am proud of...haha...higher chinese i still can make it...as for chemistry, i have to work hard enough to get at least a B3...maths have been always my weak point...but i still can cope with my add math..ele math is getting more complicated and tough...jus have to focus more...focus studies have started this week...and SYF competitions are just around the corner...so many stuffs going on at the same time...and there is only one month left to mid-year exams...i havent even revise a single bit of thing...i'm already half-dead i supposed...xin ni, chin fern and an qi have moved to spore and stayed together during school days...i am the only one who have to travel back and fro to spore...it's tiring if u have not tried it before...i am gone thru this for the past 10 years...but i am really really very tired of this....i ahd enough...it's either i move to spore or else i would have to score badly for my o lvl..i dun have time to prepare and focus on my weak points...i guess if this continues, i'll have to give up thinking about getting into a better jc...ms choo asked me what would i liked to get as a reward after syf be it whether we get gold anot....i told her...i want another year to study for my o lvl...of course it is just simply impossible...i am dreaming lar...haha...i seriously need a long break...or else i will break down any moment....well, i guess i've said enough...time for me to reflect and do hw...good luck to everyone who are performing for tml's concert at RP..including me! haha....best of luck....
Where were you when skies were grey
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Holidays...i doubt so...|Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Well, my mum paid the broadband fees late so it was suspended for a week...haha...anyway, i'm in a holiday mood now...but still i have to return school for supplementary lesson....haix...choir camp is around the corner too...sianx....everyday see Ms Tan till wanna puke le...haix...tml is from 8 to 1pm....god knows if i can tahan till 1....without dozing off...haha...but i already expect this kind of life during march holiday...so envious those who went to Yun Nam n India for either CIP or exchange programme...sooooo good sia...
I am supposed to buy a handphone but due to some problem i cant le...haix...so i changed my mind to buying a new mp3...but not sure lar...cos my mum said maybe my dad would allow me to sign line together with a phone...yeah..really hope my dad allows....cant tahan my stupid phone le...
Yesterday i was one pathetic fellow who went to watch movie ALONE!!! haha....watched The Pursuit Of HappYness...quite a touching movie....That Fitri...really made my blood boils...she pang seh me last friday at cwp..she was supposed to treat me to a movie...she disappeared....today..again...din come to school even....oh my....actually i wanted to watch a movie alone again....thought i'm crazy bah...but tell you, it's quite a cool thing to watch movie alone...although it's abit lonely lar...but the silence is really solemnly wonderful....the peaceful atmosphere is the best thing i have sensed....
Oh ya..i 'm joining Campus superstar audition this saturday..haha...ppl who are free please come down to Toa Payoh HDB Hub to support me..thanks!!!i'm still looking for a suitable song to sing..i dun wanna be dropout like 2 yrs ago...i'm quite confident to get into the 2nd audition...must be more confident...haha...
I went to Xiangyi's blog and read her post on wad's the meaning of love and life....it was great and exactly wad i was tinking....wad she said really touched me...
This is part of the post that extracted out...hope xiangyi dun mind!
"what's the meaning of a relationship? what's the meaning of being in love? ain't relationships tiring? why do people still continue looking for a partner even after failing to continue their previous relationships? doesn't the pain stop people from looking for their 'love'? aren't they afraid to get another heartbreaking experience? why do they never stop looking for 'love'? do they really believe that there is really someone made for them somewhere on this planet? do they really believe in happily ever after? i thought i knew about 'love' very well.. but actually i know nothing at all.. the more relationships i get myself into.. the more confused i become.. is it really worth hurting yourself over and over again just to find the man you THINK is the one? is it really worth the heartache to like someone who will never like you? is that the truth of happiness? does 'the one' really exist or is it just a cycle passed down from generations before us? will a strong attraction be forever strong? or no matter how strong the attraction, it will fade away one day? is it really worth crying over a gone relationship? i personally find it more worth it crying over tv dramas.. maybe bcos im one who's afraid to love again..
what's the meaning of life? sometimes i thought it would have been better if nothing existed at all.. no humans, no trees, no animals, no planets, no galaxy.. we eat, we work, we cry, we laugh and we die.. sometimes i think that emotions are not necessary.. i wished all humans died.. and there will be no next generation of humans to suffer the meaning of life.. no sickness.. no cripples.. no work.. no stress.. and no emotion burdens.. but is it possible to have 'nothing' in this world? no.. not even your God.."
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www.simplequeenxiangyi.blogspot.com.
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busy with tests|Thursday, March 01, 2007
haix...i just hate class tests...i'm left with biology and chinese test tml...i heard tat the biology test is going to be tough...haix...furthermore, the chinese test requires memorise notes...i am at a lost now...cry...i flunked my source-based questions for social studies...scored badly for chinese comprehension and ele math....i scored well for add math and the bio test previously...i scared my chem and physics...tink i gonna fail bah...haix...english i dun nid to worry much...got 23/30 gor sail test, have to see the summary's result now...but dun tink i will flunk lar...ooh yar...have to do a recount essay tml...haix....i'm damn busy lor...
There were rumours about Mrs Pang wanting to close down choir...haix...there are some obvious evidences to prove this...we had only 9 sec ones...can u believe this? even creative media has 15 sec ones...it's weird, dun u tink so? even my batch with only 7 classes could recruit 23 pupils in...something's wrong, something's gona happen bah...but no matter what, we still have to go on....strive for gold for SYF...no matter wad obstacles we have in front of us...we must overcome them...i dun wan Ms Choo to go...neither do i want to see the fall of choir in our hands....but i lost the confidence and almost all the passion...i guess i'm the one who is being left out bah....always alone...think alone, act alone, eat alone, shop alone....but i am used to this kind of life le....there are not much worries except for those in school....i wil get through this eventually...i strongly believe...
i dun have a goal yet...in wadeva i wan to do and where i would like to go for further studies...i'm like a clueless pig...haha...i' just going thru my life day by day with the same daily routine...wake up, sit bus, reach school, study, recess, study agian, cca, go home, bath, eat, do homework, sleep...everyday seemed to be repeating itself...i dunno how to change it...i dun find anything interesting in life...i lose the passion in everything now...maybe even studies....but the worse thing is..i dun even know wad more interests i have...i dunno wad to develop on......i'll just have to lead my life blindly...
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