treasure ur loved ones|Sunday, May 28, 2006
suddenly i have d urge to talk about treasuring ur loved ones...i saw sayping's msn nick....``The bracelet,was the first bracelet i made it myself for a girl...this is how much i love her...It was at the cinema...where i worn it for her,and she looked at me with a pair of touching eyes...this is how much i love her...`` Touching isn't it? i nearly cried seriously...i wanna say to sayping...'i jus hope hazel can understand ur love for her...good luck...' To hazel...'hope u can find ur true love...maybe tat ignorance is jus a toy...think abt ur relationship seriously...dun regret like me...trust urself...take care...'
one more guy who touched me is Shawn...his blog...one line...``The only way you can see me smile,is when i see you smile...`` Huiyi is so fortunate to have a guy so truely love her....actually Hazel and Huiyi are so fortunate but they never know....ppl are always like tat...shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu...haix...
i can say i'm not as fortunate...firstly i wanna say sorry to jiajun...i patched with him truely...i wasn't truthful tat day...i was indeed ashamed to tell u this...i am afraid tat u'll look down on me...cos i promised u to be clear of my decisions..but i can't...sorry...jus hope u can take it easy....
u can say he is slow...but i not sure...i wanted bu chang but he din know wad to buy for me...so i asked him to guess...in very a long time he got it correct...that was couple rings...tis was jus a suggestion but i never expect him to really purchase it...i jus wan him to buchang me in a very sincere way...anything will do...seriously...nowadays..he had scary mood swing tat shocked me...he can suddenly run off without telling us wad is it about...haix...he is jus too stress i guess...but the worst thing is he never tell me wad is he doing some of the times...maybe i am jus nosey but things sumtimes things are related to me but he jus wouldn't say anything...seriously tell me are we getting better? isn't tis wad u promised me when we patched...why are things happening again and again? i told myself to stop crying cos of u...cos i believe we can be happier...but i couldn't do it...i still cry...u are making me mad...u know tat...forgive me for saying all this but really i tink we should change tis kind of situation...i dun wish tat we to go on like tat...in the end..it'll lead to break up again..so wad's d use to patch up again...dun waste each other's time again....change it or end it...i dun wan to cry again....please...
Where were you when skies were grey
2:54 PM <3
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why why why|Monday, May 22, 2006
so unlucky nowadays..haix...my chi teacher lost my chi file...she expected d ppl who borrowed my file to copy everything for me after she confirmed tat my file is lost..haix...i was so fed up lol...my compo all gone...haix..my hard effort...down d drain...
today was d committee voting...peiqi told me abt she nominating me for president abt 3weeks ago...and guess wad? there wasn't any of my name in any of the positions in choir...i was angry...if she had told me earlier i would have a safe seat in the councillor exco! but now i dun even had a finger in either of the 2 committee..wad the heck? but now i had calmed myself down...having no positions means i am free of jobs..haha..i am now helping hazel as d publicity manager...haix...
then sumore got choir practice in d holi...very busy..i going to sarawak on 3rd jun...but before tat..got so much things on...chinese project...cultural camp...i am busy...i tink i dun haf time to revise lol...no mood to revise..today everyone who failed add math had to go for a meeting..mdm nora was telling us abt dropping add math...but there is going to be a retest before anyone drops...but i willnot drop...i must tink of d future...i drop i die..haha...but i must really work hard for it lol...if i fail agian must drop liao..haix...must jia you lol...
okay that's enuf for today..good nite...
Where were you when skies were grey
9:30 PM <3
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sarawak briefing|Saturday, May 20, 2006
actually i had d decision to stop writing blog cos i dun really find it interesting anymore...haha....but since lao gong wan me to write then i'll write...=) haix..tis morning i went to school at about 10am for the briefing to sarawak...a woman from the tourist guide company came to brief us...she was quite humourous..haha..we had lots of laugh during tat period....ms lim..mdm lim..ms haslinda and of course ms chithra going with us to sarawak...omg....ms chithra...everyone will be damn good de...hehe...but i hope it'll be an unforgetable trip for me...haha...after tat briefing...i went to cmp with sem yixin yl peng2 they all to eat kfc or sumting la...then everyone of us were waiting for guozheng -_-"....sem saw him and hid sumwhere..then yl peng2 n him dunno went off w/o telling us why..then me sem n yixin went to giordano n look for sum clothes as they wanted to go play in arcade but they din bring any home clothes to change...but in d end they decided to go home...then i went to meet lao gong lol...sian ah...we saw jialin when we were getting to sumwhere...then we changed our mind to wait for nat and her mum to cut her hair...after tat they arrived liao then we went to buy bubble tes but at sweet talk there was a long queue then we decided to go to marsiling to buy lol...sian..we walked to his auntie's house cos actually i wanted to cut my hair but i dunno how to cut my hair..so we went to shawn's house...actually is under his void deck la...we waited for his msg to go up to his house for one n a half hour....haix..but in d end we din go la..lao gong sat me in bus to chckpt...but got jam so i alighted n walked myself...he so blur...alight liao then board again..hehe...so funni...then i walked nto d chckpt...but got jam lol...getting thru d checking of passport liao then i was going to board d bus to msia custom but so long queue but i still waited...when boarding...everyone was so kanchong lol...push here push there..indirectly i got molested la...haix...always tis kind of thing happened one..haha....tml i'll be quite busy as i got choir prac tml morn and matbe will be doing my homework in d noon and there is going to be a rehersal for d meeting next sunday..haix...so sian lol...haix...nvm...as long i can go out wif lao gong...hahah...tink tat's all...bye folks...
Where were you when skies were grey
8:39 PM <3
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my ending...|Sunday, May 14, 2006
sori ppl..my computer had been sent to repair for the past few months...so sad..but now can online liao..yeah!!! haha...but along these weeks alot of things have happened...well...i tink i no need to talk about friday's trip...since colin and shawn had done that...save my effort of re-doing it again...haha....but at least in my point of view....it was a nice day...and sumore i can play till 8 then go home!!! haha...but on the way back i was late and my mum reprimanded me..haha....but i dun care cos i was too happy to tink abt those things..hee...i've returned to soka choir...today morning we had a performance...sang 2 songs..it was okay la...28th may still got performance...haha....10th june got the spore soka choir exchange programme..need us to perform again..haix...but bet it'll be fun...hee...now to issue tat happened almost one week ago...i hasn't have the chance to write about that...so i'll tell u more abt it...
actually on 4th may was our 2nd anniversary and i gave him something i made myself...a cd album if i could say..with a letter..but that album seriously took me lots of effort to make it...just hope that he could appreciate it...haa..well..the problem lies with the letter...i asked him if we should continue or end our relationship....honestly..i hope we can continue cos we're like already quite close and since after the break-up last year we've been talking and chatting along quite well...i was just resurfacing our relationship...but he did something that i cried till i thought i could no longer hang on...he told me that he only brought me sufferings and unhappiness...i'll only be unhappy if we continue together...i cant belive he said that....i know tat he wasn't selfish or wadeva..but tat really hurts me...i know he always made me cry unknowingly....he did things tat he din noe would made me sad or angry....but that is not exactly his fault..i din tell him wad i wan and how i feel..i'm partly responsible too...
on monday...i went to library with hazel when jiajun smsed me that he was crying and cutting himself...i couldn't understand why at first...cos logically it should me who is supposed to be doing that...but he did it...i thought it long...i tink maybe he's jus guilty of making me suffer and all these things...he was not himself...i thought i got it over but i did not...although i din cry but inside me i wasn't getting tis over...i'm still tinking of him....i may looked strong on the outside but u are mistaken...i am very weak and fragile on the inside...
tat friday...he had mood swing half way back and he was agitated by shawn and huiyi for their carelessness of not informing him where they were...well...i sort of calm him down and we went to the pasar malam at cwp...we had lots of laughs there and i was glad he wasn't tat angry...hee...dunno whether has he found the passport cover anot...haha..i gotten my new international passport..i still remembered that 2 yrs ago he promised to buy me one passport cover...dunno whether he still recall it anot..haha...bet he wouldn't...hee...well if he really buy one for me i'll be very happy and further more...touched...haha...
wanna tell him tat whenever i see him sad or angry..i always have the urge to console him or calm him down...although i neva do a very good job..but tat's wad i tink...hee..seeing him smiling and happy i'll also be happy...and most importantly...i would like to tell him tat even being with him brings me sufferings and unhappiness...i'll still stay by his side always...i really do...cos i still love u...
Where were you when skies were grey
3:04 PM <3
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