Studying on Saturdays....|Saturday, January 20, 2007
Haha...I just have to buck up on my studies...after going out with Ting Shien n Hong Wei today, I just realised I'm so out of their world lar....Hong Wei kept pointing out my msian accent when I spoke English..lol...Den both of them kept boasting about themselves lar...Just cant stand them...But i think we're still as good as before...there's no communication gap between us lar...Only at some parts where they jus talked about their schoolmates n stuff about the school....well i cant avoid tat...jus listen lor...no choice mah..but also a good way of getting information of their school on their academic-wise areas..haha...they both very good in their add-math n physics so jus ask them to help lor...without paying them lar...but they can also come out and revise their work with me mah....its killing two birds with one stone...hahha....its jus great lar going out with them...i enjoyed so much...they both also very helpful de lor...help me carry my heavy bag n library books...if not i gonna be shortened by a few centimetres again...haha...thanks alot to u both!
Sometimes, I feel very stupid and childish in front of my old pri sch mates who mostly from better secondary schools...I dun mean my school is not good lar...but really, environment really helps to sculpher our character and self-being...those ppl from better sec schs like RI, Hwa Chong, St. Nicholas etc....you can really notice their great change after being there for at least one year...wow its just amazing lar...but i jus hope to be myself...jus have to adapt to other ppl's changing character...hee...i'm a superb chamelon in interacting with ppl....lol...but i've just lost a good fren or can i say is a best fren bah....well sometimes my principles made me lose precious things but i still uphold to my principles cos i believe in them...trust is the most important principle in my life...if a person cant be trusted...its no use talking to him...
Well, i can say i still cant adapt to the school life without the seniors...I think i rely alot on Colin, Jiajun, Junyang they all....when i have problems they're always the first ones i will go to..for advices....really thanked them alot....i missed them so much lor.......now...i have no one to speak my mind to...its jus a feeling of loneliness....i cant helped it...i start to keep things to myself again...i dunno how to release them...jus cos i'm too emotional abt things...it kills me...i cant do things properly...things jus get out of hand and uncontrollable....
I really someone to talk to...be it a stranger or not...i'm heaping myself with too much things le....its too tiring...i think i jus haven grow up...still an inmature teen...felt so ashamed to tell ppl tat i'm 17 liao....i need motivation lar.......help me!
Where were you when skies were grey
9:21 PM <3
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Career guidance...|Friday, January 19, 2007
The other day Mr Cheong was talking about career guidance...I think i got post abt that bah...
Today, Mdm Ho took over Mr Cheong's chem lesson as he jus returned from d sec3 camp...
She told her abt her "history" or so-called her experience lar...She has 3 sisters and a brother...
She was a playful girl and slacked when she was in secondary sch n jc...den she realised she had to work hard n get a university cert if not it would get her nowhere...lol...she studied very hard in her 5 yrs of university...she scored very well for her biology, topping almost every year with a few hundred dollars given as a compliment...she was also offered a honours yr in biology...lol though i dun really know wads tat abt...but Mdm Ho really earns my respect...in the way she didnt give up and her effort in studies....
Now i'm thinking of wad i wanna be as a career lar...but no realistic one lor...i really loved being a singer but tis doesnt get me very far n deep in the earnings aspect lar...tats wad i tink...n its not tat easy to be a singer lol...lawyer is not my cup of tea...i'm not good in debating let alone being a lawyer...doctor is way too hard for me...tinking of d disgusting organs tat i would see n touch makes me wanna puke....my frens told me to go study media comm in poly but i really wanna go jc lar...it suits me better...how? i really have no idea n clueless of jobs available in spore..how outdated i have been..haha...must start to read more about the business issue n check out jobs on net..thats d few ways i could tink of lar....
And yar..homework...tons of them...haix...tml have to go school again...for choir prac...sian de lor...i always dun have enough time lar...have to complete so many things at this certain period....its killing me...
Today...Mdm Li, my chinese teacher taught us a proverb...不得益友,则不如无友...means tat if u dun have best frens as in of good character and attitude..u might as well dun haf frens...i tink my translation is quite unclear lar...but back to d point...i tink having best frens is d best thing on earth but its not tat u can meet a best fren jus anywhere on earth...like looking for yr true love...frens are precious of the value and not the amount..emm how to say leh...朋友多不代表一切, 拥有知己才是人生的一大乐事...emmm....dun u all realise how important frens are as a part of our life? haha...but i'm jus frenless lar...cant find a bestie since secondary school...not everyone i tink could be trusted can be trusted...not everyone i tink they were sincere are sincere...i jus mislook ppl lar...in the end i'm the one who suffered...well...fine i resigned to fate lah...wad should be coming will come in the end...i dun have to change fate..its unchangable...
Tats all...n one last word...treasure yr frens who are sincerely true to u...those who doesnt deserve to be one jus say out...good luck ppl!
Where were you when skies were grey
6:50 PM <3
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lol....school's getting boring...|Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Lol..I starting to feel bored...Ive installed Audition...but the patching itself is so slow...cos it's running at the speed of 2 Kbps!!! Imagine how many rounds can i play while waiting for the stupid patcher to load...sianx...
Mr Cheong was talking about career guidance...On wad courses and subject combinations to choose in order to get into yr dream job...Haix...I dun even have an idea of wad to be...Let alone choosing courses and sub combinations....Jus wanna go take a look at the polytechnics but i have too much things to do lor..No time to go....next year bah...sad...
The choir costume's sample was here in the noon...It was purplish red but the material sucks! haix...we gonna wear tat on stage for SYF! lol....and tat damn costume costs abt 87 dollars...although we're not the ones paying but it's so worthless....i rather buy myself a nicer gown...lol...
Now watching the Finals for Project Superstar...Diya is not as confident lor...she should have chosen songs with faster rhythms....Carrie is getting better...she's having the pose of a superstar...well done...I'll be happy if either of them wins lar....good luck!
Well...i'm feeling hollow inside me...wondeering wad's happening...the feeling of love is lacking...care for friends is losing...even passion for singing and studies is depleting...as if i'm going to die out pieces by pieces...is this going to be the end of me? i wonder..........
Where were you when skies were grey
7:17 PM <3
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wishlist again?|Tuesday, January 16, 2007
This is the edited version after 2 weeks :D
Here's the list of wishes:
`clean my desk
(it's been quite a long time since i cleaned)
`arrange my books and stuff
(lol...it also falls under cleaning desk...)
`going online to see my new class timetable
(it's impossible when there is an error appearing...)
`top up my prepaid card?!
(i tink i rather sign a new line..)
`buy a new school bag
(cos i lazy to wash?! i dun even haf d $$ to buy..)
`a pair of PUMA/NIKE track shoes
`a new JACKET!
(most prefered: samuel & kevin's)
`a cap for Sec1 Orientation
(what? is that supposed to be a wish?)
`a schedule book to arrange my dates and meetings...
`cut hair
(well...i was tinking to cut it short...but i really hate my fringe!!!)
`new Handphone...
`new mp3
(my mp3 is being tortured...)
`SWATCH watch
`do very well in my Os...
(most probably a 10 point bah...)
`getting into a good Jc...Anderson?!
`a digital camera
(i had enough of my camera phone..it sux!)
last but not least...
`A new BOYFRIEND!!!
-to add on...
`buy guidebooks for biology, chemistry and physics...
`GOLD for SYF tis yr...
(although the percentage of gettin it is only abt 10%)
`lookin for a room to rent in spore
(any room for rent?)
...tink no more le bah....
P.S: lols...i've nth better to post lar so i did this, hope u can accept tis...hees
Where were you when skies were grey
7:33 PM <3
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lol...people complaining ler...|Saturday, January 13, 2007
Haha...sorry for not posting for so long....din mean to...nowadays not free mah...den JJ started complaining ler....lol...i know u r very de free...but no need to do tis mah...haha...joking lar...good lor...some people can slack around all day...i have to go school and study...sian, sat still got tuition...on physics n addmath mostly...cant make it for both lar...so must start to buck up now...haha...but not exactly tutoring lar...just doing practice together and ask my tutor if i have any queries...lol...by the way...tell u what, my tuition is Ting Shien..lol my primary school mate...who used to be short as me...but guess wad, he's a head taller than me...sianx....tok to him have to raise head de lor....tis is one bad point abt being short...but being short is not exactly a bad thing lar...i always hear ppl complaining abt themselves being short...although i was one of them...but tat was past...from now...i just have to accept how i am and how i looked...there's nth u can do to change facts mah, right? haha...must learn to accept things around us and on ourselves...in tis way, we can live more happily and simply without any useless quarrels and complains....imagine life with shouts and screams everyday and every moment of ur life...u can jus die out of it...lets us ppl pray for peace..haha...although its a long to peace but i still believe the day will come...for our happiness and life, Let's Pray for PEACE!!!
LOL...talking crap lar...tas all folks...dun complain me for talking crap....i'm updating...XD
Where were you when skies were grey
6:35 PM <3
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My Wishes For 2007|Monday, January 01, 2007
Here's the list of wishes:
`clean my desk
(it's been quite a long time since i cleaned)
`arrange my books and stuff
(lol...it also falls under cleaning desk...)
`going online to see my new class timetable
(it's impossible when there is an error appearing...)
`top up my prepaid card?!
(i tink i rather sign a new line..)
`buy folders for my homework and choir scores..
`buy a new school bag
(cos i lazy to wash?! i dun even haf d $$ to buy..)
`a pair of PUMA/NIKE track shoes
`a new JACKET!
(most prefered: samuel & kevin's)
`a cap for Sec1 Orientation
(what? is that supposed to be a wish?)
`a schedule book to arrange my dates and meetings...
`cut hair
(well...i was tinking to cut it short...but i really hate my fringe!!!)
`new Handphone...
`new mp3
(my mp3 is being tortured...)
`SWATCH watch
`do very well in my Os...
(most probably a 10 point bah...)
`getting into a good Jc...Anderson?!
`a digital camera
(i had enough of my camera phone..it sux!)
last but not least...
`A new BOYFRIEND!!!
Where were you when skies were grey
10:34 AM <3
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Well, i went for the countdown...but ended up watching fireworks with ZD...haix...cos we were looking around for my friends and his friends...sianx...there were too many ppl le...so we stopped at one corner to appreciate the beautiful fireworks...haha....
Sian again, i wanted to start off with my chinese holiday assignment, den i jus found out tat my new computer doesn't have the powerpoint software! Arg...but thanks to Sean, he looked for a trial version for me to use...Thanks again! But i tink i having difficulty in fiinding the powerpoint trial version...lol...I'm very sian now...cant see my timetable...cos i tink my com got some error lar...cant be bothered lol...A new year...what to expect?
Just pray hard that there wouldn't be any natural disasters or terrorist attacks this year...
World Peace!
Where were you when skies were grey
10:13 AM <3
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