Cherish your gains.|Sunday, October 07, 2007
Sorry for not posting for so long, heex :)
Suddenly i feel sentimental, to quite a large extent..
Cos of?
Maybe i'm just feeling sad over friendships..
Maybe i'm listening to S.H.E's old songs..
Believe it or not, S.H.E's songs really accompanied me throughout my life..
Ever since they stepped into star buzz..Every of their songs represents different memories and feelings of mine.
I really envied their relationship, inside out :)
Even if this kind of relationship happens to me at the age of 60,
i am willing to wait.
Frankly, i am alone.
No one is true as my friend,
at least at the surface they are very truthful.
But not inside them.I guess at this very moment,
none of my friends will miss me in one way or another.
When i regard them as my best fren, soulmate,
it's disappointing that they never regard you as one.
Sometimes, a deep friendship fades off with time.
I hate time but treasure it at the same time.
The best frens in primary school,
we rarely have topics to talk about nowadays.
Some of my pri sch frens, lose contact for more than a year.
Worse still, meeting only once a year: teacher's day.
Very sad to say, this year, only less than half the class came back.
I was shocked.
Those regular comebacks didn't appear this year.
Well, i cant make any comments but
i believe they are doing well in secondary school..
So well that they can forget and some even
sacrifice the only time to gather as a class once a year.
People always go for new, fresh frens.
I go for old, true frens.
But i don't think any of them regard me as one true fren.
It's just up to them.
I really pray hard to get a confidant,
even if i really have to sacrifice ten years of my life. <*touch wood*>
I think no one is reading my blog =X
No one tagged.
The very recent tag is nearly about one month ago.
Pathetic hur?
Well, i may be closing down this blog soon.
After the Os, I'll be working.
Dun tink i'll have extra time to blog either.
I will really spend my time working hard
and do meaningful things to fulfill myself.
Now, the most important thing is to
concentrate and study real hard.
Some of my frens tell me that i can do it,
i myself even dun have the confidence that i can.
I really lost the motivation to work hard.
I wonder what drives me to study so hard last time.
I really have to drive myself mad to study.
I believe i can.
Do my best and more.
Haha, my school's motto.
I think it's just my mentality of fearing failure.
No matter what, this is really the last leap.
Even if i cant get real good grades,
i also must try my best to do the papers.
There are lots more to find out and discover in this society, in this world.
I may not have big dreams, but as an individual,
i believe i should play a part in this world,
no matter it is physically or mentally.
Live my life to its fullest.
Ever since i stayed in Spore for the past 4 months,
i feel that the bond between me and my family is stronger.
I tend to have lots of topics to chat with my mum,
and i will talk to my dad asking him some general things.
Unlike now, last time, there was little communication between me and my parents.
Even my sister and me have lots to talk about,
although sometimes we still quarrel :P
It is just another gain and loss at the same time.
Every two weeks of coming back is very precious,
so i always stay up late like now, to enjoy my time at home.
Treasure everyone around us,
even if you have to see him or her everyday when you open your eyes.
You never know when the same scenario may turn out
to be a tragedy the next day.
So, to everyone out there, with your loved ones,
treasure all the times together, never ever take them for granted.
Memories may mean nothing to many,
but it is indeed very precious and priceless.
Even if you have all the money in the world,
you cant purchase them if you lose them.
Cherish as if you gonna lose it the next moment.
As for relationships, i've grown alot more mature mentally.
No relationship can last long.
Maybe to most.
People change, hearts change too.
You cant confirm you will love this person forever, truly.
You wil never know the next moment you
might fall in love with another stranger or
your partner may be lying to you, cheating
your feelings all this while.
It's hard to guess what people truly thinks...
So i rather stay single.
No offence, but i am real tired of suspecting and guessing.
If he dun have the sincerity to be true in front of me,
even if i know what he thinks,
it'll be useless.
I cant control him, but i also dun wanna suffer what i have suffered last time.
I want a brand new relationship with no lies and fake feelings.
It just has to come naturally, with trust and love.
No one is being forced or unwilling.
I outgrow my childish thoughts and dreamy imaginations.
No sand castles in the air, but sand castles on the beach :)
To end, from cradle to grave,
make yourself useful and live with no regrets..
Where were you when skies were grey
1:49 AM <3
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