end of school...|Friday, October 28, 2005
today is d last day of sch... din wan to cry but in d end i still cant control myself... firstly...i was warming up in choir for d open house rehersal..when we were singing 'just a single voice'...halfway thru' i felt tat my tears were flowiing out...after the song i broke into tears...cant control...then hazel went to d toilet wif me...we cried together..cos he din cum today...he said he'll cum...i cried even more terribly...after washing up..then we wwent back to sing...during d performance...we were singing so happily when suddenly...when we were singing 'come fly with me'...the music stopped and tuned to another version of tat song..we were astinshed...dumbfolded...then we jus cont' with d singing...everyone was clapping so hardly for us...so touched..then we sat down to watch the rest of the performance...as mdm harn had siad earlier..there was an amazing new afetr d performance...sure enough...so shocked for everyone...Mrs Tan is leaving the school!!! oh my god...it resemblances last time when i was p3 and Mr Ng retired...i cried again..my eyes was so red..so sad...then all the tributes for her..singing by d teachers...speeches made by d students...oh my god i feel like hugging sumone at tat time...god...jus cant control my emotions...mdm harn said i'm too emotional...haha..tat's me...u cant change the fact! then i went to cerlyn's house to learn piano...very fun...know how to play a song liao..finally...so happy...thks to cerlyn..her mum also very cute...baked cookies for me to bring home..haha...so sweet...tml cuming back to school for p6 open house jus hope that everything will go well..hee...farewell sec4s! good luck for ur 'O' lvl! i tink i got good terms eith diann they all liao...so happy...jus chatted with them tis evening...qi qi n chin fern will be in d same class as mii...haha...jus hope everything goes well..tat's all...happy holidays!
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why izzit haf 2 be like tis?|Thursday, October 27, 2005
why do i haf to cry? i asked myself... for who... it's him... disappointment aroused from nowhere into my heart... do u ne how hurt it is to be ignored by a person u loved? maybe it's d other way round.... maybe it's not...i dunno...i just felt that all tis was not use...i keep askin myself tat is tis worth? r my tears worth for him? bro told me that to speak clear to him... but i realli dunno wad to say or tell him... i haf a feeling tat tis relationshio isn't going to last any longer...he n his frens...it's not tat i'm selfish...but spare a thought for me too...where do u got a bf who show more interest in his frens than u? it's outrageous...d first thing he did was to look for his frens.. i dun tink i stand any place in his heart anymore.. he's only treating me as a display where i'm his gf by name...well...let nature take its course...we'll see his n lvls results...if he couldn't make it.. then we'll haf to say gd bye...or even farewell...haha...wadever...tat's all i tink..
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post exam activities...sian ah|Wednesday, October 26, 2005
now in school....havin cyber wellness lesson..haha...had a stupid quiz on d usage of internet....haha...i fall into d range of danger.. no choice la..cos my mum doesn't allow me to watch tv...so wad to do? haix...it's helll...no able to play games... some more i still cant play maple cos haven install the broadband... i am going crazy....ppl are playing n discussing maple everywhere...anytime..haha..
then he going work liao....no one to acoompany mii most of d time..see..i'm alone...lonely...haix...wadever...even got ppl pity mii..haha..ppl...cum to ii if u haf any prob...i will e there to help...cos i'm so boring...it's d end of d year now...emotions n feelings r cuming up from my heart now...lots of things to say...jus cant bear to leave my beloved classmtes n frens..but how? i wan to go 2 d geo class..waner n others going 2 hist class...cry....wad to do?
haha..but i'm happy tat tat i got 5th in class n 6t in level...i din dropped compared 2 last year...haha..i am so stressed up now but dunno cos of wad haha..
glad tat ppl read my blog...not like those i wrote it for...they dun read it..haha...weird..how i have a prob..i need to find a suitable eng name..now i hate ppl calling my chinese name cos they dun pronounce properly...haha..nvm... i tink tat's all..see u ppl..
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sian ah...got back my results liao...|Saturday, October 22, 2005
just got back my results on wed..all d papers leh..scary...wan us to haf a heart attack breakdown..haha...but overall i did okay..luckily didn't 'deprove' or else i die liao...hee...my best subs..sci n hmt dropped..cry..but surprsingly my math n hist my worst sub...got a2 n b3 respectively..haha...i was so happy....didn't fail mmy eng n lit...lit jus passed...30/60...hahaa.....my d&t got 84 in paper lah...wif practical combined it's 79.3...my geo was d best among the major subs...79..hee...i got all d confidence tat's y..haha..now i'm fussing over which combination class to go..haix..geo or hist...all my frens going to hist class...only mii n liping wan to go geo...haix..then if i go hist maybe i take pure geo..but it may be very stressed cos double humans leh..cry...then i tink we got 3 triple sci class...siao lor...then all classes will be taking add math..which everyone hates..haha..i still got abt 1 week to decide..very confusing but i dun wan to lose all my fren....esp the toilet gang..cry...haix...
btw..i got 5th in class n 6th in level...same as last yr...happy...thout i will drop..cos of cally...haha..waner more pro sia..got 1st in class n level...won esther n yoges..liping also not bad...sheryl was surprisingly 4th in class n 5th in level..jus above mi..haah...nvm..i tink it's good...but too bad i can't get any money cos i dun haf edusave..haix..but waner said will treat mi a meal..dun forget!heex...
he working now again..today actually going to ice skating together..how can?he got training at d hotel...ytd i was damn angry..cerlyn went to hazel's house without waiting for mii...i din blame cerlyn cos not her fault...then he went out with his sec1 frens...cry..he said long time din go out wif them liao...i hate them...i told him n he siad dun be like tis...like wad...huh...how can i not be angry...leave me in the lurch when i came down from hmt..everyone is not there for mii! how dare...fine..i'm alone! wif simin...she very sad cos her results lor...haix...she scored quite bad and failed her maths..she said wan to drop hmt...but mdm leow dun allow..she go then i'm alone again..cry..why...i am so sad n confused..he siad to go out wif mii next tues..how? i got ipw to prepare for the day n a choir performance on sat...how? he siad he wan to go ice skating one lor..then he's the one who cant make it...walou..pathetic...his business...everytime work work..fine his business...i haf nth to say now..bb tat's all...
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east coast n bowling....|Tuesday, October 18, 2005
On mon...we went to east coast...rode bicycle...i rode on quite a high one...honestly i hasn't been cycling for so long...haix...so i sort of freak out when i got the bike..haha...but after quite a while i managed to ride it..hazel worst sia...the bike she took was shortr than mine...and she didn't noe how to ride..haha...mi n him rode to d other side n returned n guess wad..they were still at the starting point! haha...cerlyn din cum so sad...haix...then we went to parkway parade...there got alot of shops...haha...we went to buy earrings...and i din eat so i bought two breads..then we insulted that shortie guy..danny..haha..i was laughing till i wan to cry man..haha...then we went home by bus...tat's d day..and btw..sorry daddy for letting u waited so long..sorrie
on d next day..mi n cerlyn n him went bowling sia..at bukit panjang..took d lrt..quite scary u noe...got a feeling on d roller coaster...haha...we played 3 games..i din noe how to play..tikam lor..haha...managed to play quite well..we were tinking if she went there wif us she surely would be irritating..haha...we had so much fun...then got 1 occasion..the ball was quite oily n my fingers were quite short to hold the ball..and the ball rolled away..n they laughed till i din noe how to play..haha...but it was fun...then we went back to lot 1...wan to go k box..he dun haf oney we also dun haf time..haha...tink next time then we go lor..very sian...but was fun..haha...bb..
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ice skating was fun!|Sunday, October 16, 2005
On fri tat's 14 oct...finished my last ppr..art..then mi n hazel n cerlyn went ice skting..wif sum1 hazel brought along..danny...euk...he's so disgusting...but anyway it was really fun...we met hui yi n hui xuan...and their frens...it was not really damn cold there...at first i dunno how to skate...keep falling down...see? my whole body ached from ytd....back pain..shoulder pain...bum pain...haha...till today lorx...i started walking along the handles....slowly...then i asked cerlyn to hold mi as i learned to skate...i had fallen dunno how many times lor...but i was not afraid of shme or whether ppl r laughing anot..i jus wan to learn skating...not like sum ppl who waste money go there chit chat wif ppl lor...btw back t danny...that pervertic...kept looking at hazel and looked at the part lor..hem..u shld noe...then he actually said going off..in d end he sat there looking at us till we went home...siao...i had sum how managed to skate...very happy...din waste my money..next week wan to go again..haha..but tml tink i going to east coast..haha..to ride bicycle not skating again..if not i'll real pain...haha...i am tinking of learning ice skating but mum siad very mafan...but i realy wan 2 learn mah..she very bad one..let my sis leanr things n mi nth..cry..nvm...i'll cont to strive n i must find a job!! they are so irritating at home..i cant stand liao..hahaah...bb..tat's all..
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exams really drive mi mad...pathetic lah....|Wednesday, October 12, 2005
haix...today's the last second day of exams...still haven done my art..ytd i was so stressed that i dun haf appetite to eat my dinner...haha....pathetic rite...today's literature die liao lah...surely fail de...math quite okay lah...dun understand why the others said it's so difficult...but it's such a pity that i forgotten how to do one of d ques...5 marks leh...tmr is chinese ppr2...scare lah..got summary some more...i only haf confidence for my geography..sianx...history also die liao...cry...
anyway let's think of the bright side...next monday we the toilet gang going to east coast to play!! yeh....but without him..i guess nth is much more fun...haix... hazel they all dun wan to come..cry...haix...i'm so sad...jus hope that i can quickly find a job...hahaha..so sianx...i tink my holiday is going to be very very boring..haix....
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