i'm so tired...|Saturday, February 25, 2006
thursday was my 16th birthday...but i wasn't happy...actually i hate birthdays....u get presents that's the good thing but my paprents din give me anything...and sum more my mum kept telling us that our birthdays are their sufferings...cos they have to give birth to us or whatsoever...cant they understand?..haix...and worst still i cried on my birthday cos of a guy whom doesn't worth to cry for..but i just cant help it...i'm feeling very depressed nowadays...don't noe why but just have a feeling to overeact on things and feel like crying everytime...maybe it's because of stress bah...common test 1 coming in 2days' time but guess what..i still haven touch on any thing yet..i really don't have the mood to study...i feel like going on holiday for a year or even longer..to escape all this stress on him and studies...but i know it's impossible..i cant jus avoid everything...i need to face them..but i'm really very tired of facing these...i'm so exhausted...i want to sleep forever...and don't ever wake up...
i'm so fortunate to have a really good friend who do care about me...it's a guy anyway..i had a few friends who are guys and really care about me..we have really pure friendship between us...it's like good sisters chatting..haha...i feel that chatting with them it's even better when i chat with my girlfriends...maybe it's kind of an unique relationship bah...but i really like it...i can really say whatever i want to them and they really can lend me their ears...sometimes they do tell me their troubles and problems..even though i cant help in some way but it's really nice to share feelings with them...i don't even tell my blood-related sister about my secrets..it's weird isn't it? i don't know i just don't have a feeling to talk to her about my stuffs..and furthermore she's that kind of people who likes to gossip and she may even reveal my secrets to my mum! haha...i just cant trust her...so i must be very careful not to slip anything confidential out..if not it's hell for me...hahah...since young i have this view of mine that friends are more important and valuable than family...although this view hasn't totally gone out of me...cos my family do play their part in my life..but honestly...i tend to display more of myself in front of friends...well...most of my friends rely on family more..some even have homesickness in camps..i never had those..i love being out myself...but parents do get worried..ao in the end of the day i still spare a thought for thier worry and remember to go home..haha...
but i really have one advice and that's to treasure your family members..i do not have great family members whom you can share your thoughts with but you cant really trust your friend totally..you noe what;s outside your world...much more scary and dangerous stuff to face..but i'm alone...i don't have a shoulder to lean on so i have to depend on myself...i must learn to be more independent and i really have to find a true friend and a true companian with a comfortable shoulder for me to lean on...
Where were you when skies were grey
6:43 PM <3
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haix...stressed up now....|Friday, February 17, 2006
next week's my bdae lio lor..bet no one will ever rmb it...haix..so much of homework during weekends....tat's d reason i hate weekends....it's killing mii now....sum more still got o.c rehersal todae lor...actually i'm free todae to go watch movie one...then WORST still...next thursday...which is exactly on my bdae, i got another o.c rehersal AGAIN!!! Above tat...actually tat dae got leadership training one..but it was postponed to late May...haha...but no time to haf a free n leisure bdae...all i haf is work n work n work...haix...common test coming liao lor..but u see.. i've been so busy till i dun even haf d time to watch tv everydae...let alone studying for d common test 1...haix...gonna fail lots of subs lor...tat's wad i predict lor....hee...dun tink i'm joking...i'm coming home very late each day...cos i staying in msia...no choice but to stay back n go home by evening bus...wasting lots of my precious time...i wan to stay in spore lor...but my parents dun allow mii to lor...haix..i realli dun haf enuf time to sleep lor...haix..no wonder i cant grow tall nowadays lor...haha....haix...i realli dunno how to go on with my life lor...feel like ending my life....i'm very very heartbroken lor....dunno wad for lor...i'm so stupid to perserve a relationship that doesn't worth my love...i cried for no reason..but tears jus flowed...cant stop it...haix...
i tink tat's all la...i had enuf liao....tat's d end of it...
Where were you when skies were grey
8:28 PM <3
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movie was nice!!!|Friday, February 10, 2006
todae i went 2 watch 'i'm not stupid too'...so touching...i cried till my jacket n handkerchief all wet throughout..haha..n i sat alone cos all seats almost sold out..sad...
i was realli touched by d story...by d way they acted n everything...it's both funni n sad lah...the issue about teacher hitting students..it talked abt the normal tech students and the different kinds of treatment they showed to them n express students...it's so unfair..they din even give them a chance to perform well...they're humans after all...it's sad...
an advice to parents of teens...do spend ur time with your kids...n think again...when did u last praise ur kids...dun keep working n neglected ur kids....actualli dun listen to ur kids they also wan to communicate wif u...they wan to tell u abt their school life n friends...spend time n try to learn abt their life...dun ever let ur kids go astray....
every little thing counts...kiss them on their forehead...attending their performances...dun ever give d excuse that u're busy!No one is forever busy...it's only an excuse...
anyone can make mistakes but d onli difference is tat u wan to change for d better anot...do give ppl a chance to change....everyone has d right to live on...i tink tat's all..bb
Where were you when skies were grey
8:20 PM <3
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life is so miserable...|Friday, February 03, 2006
haix...i wan a new handphone!!!! but i haf no money...envy those ppl who haf so much hongbao money....mine total up not even enuf to buy a mp3 player lor...haix...wanna cry...then jus nw found out tat my stupid phone got st wrong...sumone called but it didn't rang..it jus vibrated seh...haix...how? my dad for sure wouldn't buy a new hp for mii de....haix..haf to depend on myself..but how?cry...haix...jus forget abt it la...dun bother anymore...now still got so much homework...feel like dying now...cry...ppl can go bai nian n visit ppl's house n get hongbao...i can only stay at home to finish all my bloody homework before next week...n the math portfolio too!!!!ahhh....sumbody help mii...cry...help...
Where were you when skies were grey
8:48 PM <3
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hate school..|Thursday, February 02, 2006
haix...so much homework seh...gonna cry..chinese new yr went to penang...long journey sia...12hours leh...but was a nice trip...trouble now...sat n sun going to take hongbao but so much homework dunno when can finish lah...haix..ele math, add math...social studies...physics...lalala....haha...
changed my blogskin..nice?hee...feeling bored now...a terrible feeling....i'm nw tinking wad to buy for valentine's...hahaha...then still got so many ppl's bdae presents...hey yah..my bdae cumin in 21 days' time...rmb to give mii presents!!!haha..jk la..i not so greedy one lo...cry...how i wish it's holiday now..hahaha..
well i tink tat's all...bb..see ya ppl...
Where were you when skies were grey
8:01 PM <3
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