frustrated|Friday, July 28, 2006
my tear glands had been active for these two days...i feel like jumping down d building...walao! my stupid chinese project made me very mad...i had to re-do the video taking!!! my god...do u know that it's extremely irrtating...we've going down to chinatown for 4 times ler...we thought we'll never go there again...but to our surprise...we're going back AGAIN! goodness...i wanna cry! i cried right after i got back my stupid project...my god...thought i gonna faint over liao...i wanna die! help!
i'm immune now...i cant hear anything...i cant see anything...i gonna cry again...kill me...sumone pls...
Where were you when skies were grey
9:21 PM <3
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love...|Sunday, July 23, 2006
wad is love? i nv know the true meaning of love....i borrowed a book about a korean story which depicts a windchime's life....one day it realised it can fly...and it decided to go away from home....it flew to the ocean and met a seabird...the bird told it tat islands are to beautify the oceans...tat's y they exists...halfway thru it nearly got attacked by an eagle...but the bird sacrified itself by distracting the eagle n it was killed by the eagle and died...the windchime was very sad when d bird died....it didn't understand the meaning of death...along the way the things it saw n met gave their love to it...by then it realised it had been loved by everthing around it...it met with another windchime who used to regain its freedom but it chose to return back as it knew its mission is to produce lovely chimes for d people...in the end the windchime returned home n remained as a windchime who was loved by its owner...
i cried ytd when i was in d bus with xuan...i really cant take it anymore....he was so cold towards me...maybe he really dun wished to come n meet me...he showed it on his face...along the way i didn't talk to him...xuan told me to be strong and take things easy...i couldn't...i cant do it...she told me to be more optimistic...to let go of things if they dun belong to u...i still cant figure out y am i so stupid to stick wif him till nw...cos i need him? or do i still love him? i dunno...i haf no answer to tis question....i dun wan to play wif feelings...so i wan a realtionship tat is long n sweet...ppl always say
bu zai hu tian chang di jiu , zhi zai hu chen g jin yong you...i dun believe in tis...to me...i yearn for eternity even it doesn't exist...i wished i could live forever...
What i wan is jus a little more care ,a little more love, a little more time from him..i jus need a little more...why could he give them to his frens but couldn't give me? i dun understand...his priority still lies for his brothers n frens...but not me...even if he had i cant feel tat...i still tolerate...xuan said if i'm her she'll immediately break without even considering...she cant take tis kind of attitude...i really dunno wad to do...sumone help me...
Where were you when skies were grey
3:21 PM <3
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national accapella competition|Friday, July 21, 2006
yesterday right after school we rushed off to get taxi down to esplanade...for our competition! we reached on the spot for sound check...god so scary sia...then me and hazel went to Thai Express to have our lunch....looking at d menu...it's quite affordable....tat's wad we thought...haha...we had our fill...wow...nice food man...when we saw d receipt...we were sort of shocked and opened our mouths wide..cos the cost outstood our original payment..jus cos it included gst n service charge...apparently we din come to a restaurant before...luckily we had enuf money to pay if not i dunno wad to do...haha...jus hope tis will be d one n last time i ever stepped into a restaurant...hee...
then we went to
library@esplanade and practiced our songs...goodness we sounded quite okay..ppl there were studying n reading...i was wondering whether we were disturbing them haha...after tat colin came and we practiced for abt another few mins...we went off then finding the dressing room...i was already very fed up with d lunch jus nw and now we were like bunch of monkeys running around esplanade to look for jus the dressing room...stupid i felt so stupid...in the end we got trapped in a restricted area....after long mins of searching up n down...walking the same place again n again...n not forgetting the pair of heels i borrowed which made me even more fed up...my toes were painful n swollen....i nearly wanted to throw them away...but at second thought....it's not mine...i controlled myself....hee...then when we were reaching the dressing room which we found ...we went pass jeremy whom howled vulgarities right into our faces talking on his phone...we were petrified by him totally....god...jus cos he cant find the exit...-_-" lame....then in d dressing room he scolded one of his team mates....for no reason i tink....hee...he really spoiled my mood....god...damn him...
on the stage....we were like very nervous...at d start we were quite unstable...but after tat we sort of calm down and did quite well...well then we were listening to the other groups...they were great lol...totally ravishing...the college category n d open category were very competitive....in the end i tink tone got 2nd n sumone got 1st...we got consolation...lol...but the points were abt 3rd...among 6 groups we were considered okay la...haha...today we were being announced during d morning assembly so proud man..hee...
next friday there is going to be an acapella concert...annually...if u re interested contact me...^.^
Where were you when skies were grey
7:47 PM <3
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long time no blog|Wednesday, July 19, 2006
hi ppl i'm back here again! my com broke down so sorry for me not blogging these few mths...amazingly i got to stay alive without my com this june holiday...haha...lots of happenings which i didn't get to update...i went ice skating...sentosa..choir prac...emm...no more bah i tink..hee...nowadays we're busily preparing for tml's accapella competition...haiz...got lots of problem beforehand...so mafan lol...stressed up too...
i've losing interest in studying now...ever since my add math failed n i haf to work really hard tis term to get thru tis time...or else i have to drop for good...n u see i'm so busy tat i dun even haf time to even do my homework...i wonder how am i going to survive now...been depressed all these days..getting angry very easily n fed up wif ppl....then mood swing keep swinging to n fro...ha....dunno how to control my mood..haix...tink i going crazy...hee...
common test's coming up in abt 1mth's time n i'm still lazing around...haha....i really cant figure out wad's d meaning of life...why are here? studying? earn money? enjoy life? wadeva it is....i am jus too lazy to tink abt it now..haha..anyway shawn n huiyi are together now...a sweet pair of couples....so envious of them...hazel had her sweetheart too...me? of course my gaga laogong will be wif me...jus hope he could make it thru his o levels...if not i'll cry....focus hard n study hard but dun stress urself up k? must jiayou...rmb wad u promised me after ur o levels...i'll support in wadeva u do..muack...
Where were you when skies were grey
7:54 PM <3
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