why are things becoming like this?|Thursday, October 19, 2006
Well, i just got back my EOY results...Honestly speaking, i studied quite hard for it lol...In the end, i failed Add math, Combined humanities and Physics (by 1 mark only!!) It's very frustrating but i did improved alot compared to CT3...haix...People are retaining in my batch! Goodness! Can you believe it?! Haix...all bcos of English lol...Just pray hard that i wouldn't be the 'Lucky' one! Frankly, i have to really buck up....comparing my PSLE T-score and my results now, you'll know it's horredous...Oh my....I'm so afraid that i cant score well...at least a 10-point for my 'O' levels...haix...I've found a addmath tuition teacher...no matter what, i've to pass this provisional test on 28 nov...which is about one month from now...Ganbatte neh!
My life has been calm and peaceful since i broke up with him...but maybe it's just too peaceful and quiet...No one has the time to go out with me...Hazel has Darlyn...seems like she cant bear to leave him...even i asked her out to k-box without guys...she still asked me, "Can I bring Darlyn along?"...oh my god...Semantha, haha...she's going out to watch a movie with someone...last minute der lol...Even tha TAS East Coast outing is cancelled last night...What the...Haix...This morning...Ruiling smsed me, saying that tomorrow's shooping trip is postponed to next week...Do you all know that it's killing me now? Last week's pupil release days...I spent it by watching "I Am Samsoon" 16 episodes....Imagine sitting at home, staring at the tv, crying and laughing at the same but my heart was filling with sadness and loneliness...It's so unbearable...I have so many friends yet I cant find a suitable candidate to go out with!!! Rotting at home is what i could do now....My computer has been broken down for months...So you see, i'll have to find computers everywhere just to write a post on my blog...oh my god...pity me....
Someone has beeen 'harassing' me...God...He accused me of something i didn't even do or think about it!!! It startled me...Spreading rumours about that girl? I knew nothing at all...I only know that I don't really likeher...But what's wrong with hating someone? He sounded like I don't have the right to hate anyone...God...Okay, I hate you and her, can I? He ruined my circle of friends and my 'reputation'....I don't want him to look down...But i'm lacking of popularity among my friends...Like i've said earlier, I cant even find a person to just chat with...He's using words to hurt me...Rude, he is...and he said i've no manners...Oh really...Like i really did...He blamed me on everything...Like he had never ever done something wrong...He even lied by saying that Cerlyn and Hazel complained to him about my freaking attitude...I admitted that i was feeeling very terrible so this contributed to my bad attitude but I never showed him any!!! I hasn't been talking ti him for the past 2 months...Where does he have the evidence in saying that I showed him attitude? And he freaking hell didn't return my 24 dollars that he owed 2 months ago...If it's not the 24 dolllars, he should gone and out of my life by now!!! And now, bcos of the bugging money he owed me, we've to smsed each other...Oh god...He still says that he doesn't wish to return me...Well, he has no right to say that...It's my money afterall...And he is dragging the loan to forever....Actually i could just give up the 24 dollars but i am not willing to do that! What's mine I've to get it back...
Well...i think my nov-dec holidays are going to be very busy...I have to start my torturous studying from the start of holidays...I still have a performance on 18th Dec of my Soka Youth Day...Have to start practising hand signs and songs...Most importantly, next year's SYF...Choir really has to buck up...Looking from the situation now...I think we cant get a silver aand maybe barely a bronze...The juniors are lacking of discipline and the sec3s have been absent for a few sessions of practice...We have to do something...We cant let down our seniors and teachers, especially Ms Choo...So, people let's do our best and show them how powerful we can be! Jia you orh!
Where were you when skies were grey
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Where were you when skies were grey
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