Long-lost post|Friday, August 17, 2007
It's been a long time since I last posted the entry.
Now I'm in the midst of the prelim exams...
English was terrible today...
Haix...
Yesterday's english oral was not as successful as I thought it would be.
Let bygones be bygones ba...
I'll start anew...
I wonder if he'll read this but..
Wish that he'll stay happy always...
No matter what happens...
I'm glad to have loved you before.
And i'll treasure the happy and sweet memories we've had together...
i'll let go of the hatred and sadness in this relationship...
I'm going to start anew...
I believe I wouldn't disappoint you...
So you must stay happy and xingfu always...
Yl told me to open up my heart..
Not to seal myself up cuase of a failing relationship that didn't worked out...
I am trying to...
trying very hard to...
But before that, I don't think I should accept him..
i wanna taste the sweetness of being loved...
haha..
it has been a long time since i've been loved...
glad that someone is loving me now..
at this very moment...
and how i hoped he would love me forever...
if he could...
maybe i shouldn't make him wait...
maybe he might just give up on me and disappear...
i'm afraid of that happening..
i don't wanna lose the one who loved me and i loved anymore...
i missed all the insignificant actions...
that showed me that he loved me...
and i wanna return to that patch of grass again..
to enjoy the sunshine and that sweet smile of mine...
to smell the freshness of the dews and soil...
to watch the birds soaring up in the sky...
to watch every sunrise and sunset in his arms...
in the near future...
if we could be together...
maybe the pain will come eventually..
but shouldn't i just feel the love and waited to be cherished?
maybe the outcome is not a sad ending like the previous one...
maybe if we were bound to separate in the end,
the pain is not as unbearable...
maybe...
maybe i shouldn't think of the bad sides of love...
thinking of the good and sweet sides...
it may make me feel better...
feel a lot more better...
Fight for your happiness, everyone!
even if pain is bound to arrive...
treasure every loving moment...
till the love between the two of you ends...
Today was quite a relaxing day...
Tml going back Sem's house again...
Didn't even get to stay at home for more than a day...
Mum's not cooking again..
Haix..
It has been one month since I've last tasted mum's cooking...
But she helped me cokoked instant noodles..
Is that considered cooking too?
Haha..
but still miss mummy and dad....
love them lots..
although i didn't say that in front of them >.<
lol...study study study...
hope o level can end as soon as possible...
i wanna go out and play!
i wanna enjoy tan lian ai again!
haha...
stressed up lor...
but no choice wad..
i'm still thinking of which course to go...
there is one which i am quite interested..
culinary and catering management in temasek poly..
so far wor...
but if he going there too..
i don't mind the distance...
heehee...
i seemed so unconcerned about my future...
wonder if i am stuck in my dreamland for too long a period...
help me out!
think i've got nothing more to say le ba...
sayoonara!
Where were you when skies were grey
3:36 PM <3
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