Alone|Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Rotting at home for about a week le...
All i did was wake up, eat , watch tv and play com...
I hate this kind of life...
But I've got no work...
Nobody has called me to work...
I am sad..
Sian ah...
I'm going to finish the korean drama " Joo Mong "...
Finally...
But after that, I'll be rotting at home again...
It seems like I've lose the goal of life...
But singing will still be the goal in my life at this moment..
I'll find a new goal in my life soon, i hope...
Till then, I should do my best and sing my best...
I may just lose the chance of singing when I go poly...
Treasuring every practice is what i could do...
So that's all I tink...
Where were you when skies were grey
9:17 PM <3
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Goodbyes|Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Is it hard to say goodbyes?
I've read many ppl's blogs...
They were recalling the past memories and happy moments in the secondary school life...
Who doesn't appreciate and cherish these precious memories?
But we'll still have to move on...
I'm glad that my friends had made true best friends in their 4 years of sec sch life...
I've made frens too...
But deep inside my heart, there is still a part of it that is feeling 'empty'...
I dunno why...
I am glad to know my friends in Riverside,
My 1/6 and 2/6 malaylanders and toilet gangs....
Yoges, Liping, Mahdi, Waner, Andy, Fitri...and many more...
I've had fun with them, no matter is it Sports Carnival or National Day Celebration...
I'll never forget how we danced Bangla and sang 'Where I belong'...
And we won the 1st place!
With Ms Nora around, our class seemed to be the best in every competitions...
With Ms Nora around, our 2/6 spirit never fade off or die down...
I appreciated what Ms Nora had taught me...
I've learn alot from her and from my 2/6 mates...
I'm glad and proud to be a part of 2/6 '05...
When it comes to 3/5, I admitted that I couldn't feel the spirit and the unity as a class...
I was quite sad with the performance of the class, not academically but physically and mentally...
We weren't as strong and determined as other classes...
People started to slack and 'heck-care' when it comes to Sports Carnival and Cross Country...
Even the classroom decoration was left aside and undone...
Unlike 2/6, everyone devoted themselves into the decoration
and would spend as much time as possible to finish up
and present our best to the judges...
I was forsaken by people around me...
I felt depressed as a member of 3/5 initially...
But slowly, I realised my classmates had potentials and hidden talents...
I started to appreciate them and learnt from them...
I would ask for help and enquire them about stuff that i was unsure of...
I made great frens in 3/5 cum 4/5...
Sem, Vivien, Jieling, Hana, Zhanpeng, Kenneth, Divya, Aqilah...
I learnt that they are multi-talented and cheeky some of the times...
I had fun times with them and they made my life in 4/5 as meaningful as possible...
I once thought I'll never like this school cos of my stubbornness to choose a school out of anger and disappointment...
But I'm glad everything turned out well and fine...
Great friends and precious memories...
Maybe it isn't so hard to say goodbyes afterall...
Fate will bring us together and break us apart when time comes...
We'll just have to move on with our life and put these memories aside,
in a cherished part of our hearts and let it be kept untouched and safe.
Life has to go on...
We cant let friends distract our future and choices we made that determine our future...
Friends come and go but still, they'll leave footprints in our hearts that would be cherished and remembered for long...
I do hope everyone can strive their best and work towards each of your goals and dreams...
ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK!!!
Where were you when skies were grey
10:05 PM <3
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Personality tests|Sunday, January 27, 2008
I was deciding whether to register for JAE,
and i am quite confused.
So i had a fun time going through all these quizzes and tests!
Hope you'll like it!
This is quite a cool website! Try it!
Personality test
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet.
You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict.
Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic.
When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person.
And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex.
In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life.
You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income.
Knowing what you like to do is important.
Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control.
Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice.
People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues.
Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
The Real You
Here is the analysis:
1.You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm.
Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you.
You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them.
Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2.You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life.
You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3.You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well.
People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves.
You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice.
You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4.Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person.
They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet.
Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes.
When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5.Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
Your personality love style
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever.
You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them.
You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment.
If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone.
Your love has to be perfect.
Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet.
Everybody likes to be around people with your personality.
Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident.
You look mature and people respect you.
People with this kind of character are few and far between.
What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 60%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry.
You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship.
You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily.
You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do.
Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance.
Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 50%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy
You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions.
For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"
Your Hidden Talent
Here is the analysis:
The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person.
Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd.
You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.
Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:
Unlike most others, he walk on his own path.
He's creative and willing to learn about anything.
Music and movies are his favorites.
He's kind to everyone.
You can feel his inner beauty through his words.
He's comfortable among a circle of friends.
He's looking for someone to share his hobbies.
Haix, i tink i should go to submit my registration le...
Bye, hope ppl can get into their dream schools and courses!
Good luck!
Where were you when skies were grey
8:25 PM <3
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After the release|Thursday, January 24, 2008
Yup, I'm happy with my results.
I didn't expect too much for myself, cos i knew I didn't put in my very best.
15 is abit off my target, but I didn't cry.
Luckily the history 4 years ago didn't resurface...
I'm glad that my English and Combined Humanities got B3!
My Physics so tyco lor, never study also can achieved B3!
Sadly, for my Amath, I got C5...
Sorry, WJ Korkor!
My biology got A2 and Chemistry got B3 (most prob cos of my practical!)
My higher chinese got A1...
So overall, I only got 3 distinctions including my Chinese taken during sec3...
Heard from Jingjie that only 2 people got A1 for higher chinese,
and that's ME and Angel if i'm not wrong!
Haha, happy:)
Although my name didn't appear on the screen, at least I know I did well.
Loads of my frens were better, 14 and less...
Especially Ting Shien, Yeun See, Waner, Wan Leng!
They are all single-digit scorers!
As for Hong Wei, he got 13!
He got the same score as me during prelims...
Shows that he've put in more effort than I do...
I was quite shocked when I got to know that some of the combined science students
in my school did alot better than me!
Diann and Nandhini scored 13!
And Simin scored 11!
Wow...
After all the crying and laughter in school,
I went K with Sem, Zel and Xin...
Had a good time singing and releasing all my sorrow in the songs...
Now, I have to crack my mind with all the choices of school!
Hope I can get into my dream course!
Jiayou ppls!
Where were you when skies were grey
11:28 PM <3
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Today is the release of 'O' levels results!
Many ppl, i believe, are suffering from pre-results release-stress....
Relax!
My sister used to have nightmares and sleepwalks during the period before her 'N' levels result release...
Hahaha...
I've learnt to be relaxed and look things at the brighter side...
I used to be very nervous before exams and it turned out that when you are nervous, you cant do your paper well...
So, for the whole of 'O' levels, I didn't panick as much as before during the end-of-year exams...
I hope this time I could do better than the prelims...
I didn't set a very high target cos i know my limits and performance...
I still can recall the day I took my PSLE results...
I put myself to high expectations and in the end, I got 5 marks less to my target...
I cried terribly and became depressed...
And due to my stubborness, I chose a school which i din't really like.
Somehow, I still hate myself for making stupid choices when i was in P6...
But now, no matter how badly i've done, I must choose a wise route for myself, with no regrets...
I believe everyone will be able to do well this time...JIA YOU!!!
For every person out there, ' No matter what happens, strive to your best and live with no regrets! '
I'll still face the consequences of my effort and strive harder in the future!
Good luck, everyone!
Where were you when skies were grey
8:52 AM <3
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A Complicated love story|Sunday, January 20, 2008
This is a real story of her, him and him.
It was a love triangle, but u may want to consider it as a two-timer story.
He and she had been in love for more than 5 years,
since the choir started in the early millennium...
They went to practices and performance...
Everywhere they go, they'll stick together like they've never separated before.
After a long period of relationship, she started to feel that this love was just a dependent habit.
She will give cold replies and showed least interest in talking with him.
2 years ago, he appeared.
He was more handsome than him and younger than him.
Although he was young at the age of 23, his thinking and mindset was beyond his age.
He wasn't aware of her change of attitude towards himself.
She started to make friends with him and slowly, they started a underground relationship.
Only her sister and me knew about it, but we never told anyone, even each other.
Keeping this secret was a hard task, but i managed it.
Whenever I go practices, I'll look at him and my heart really bleed for him.
He never know what they were up to, he treated her as normal, the caring and concerned way.
and she treated him the cold way as before.
I was with quite good terms with him, and he told me about it,
when i was suspecting it.
My heart broke, I asked him,
"Do you know that she has got a boyfriend already, for 5 years?"
He replied,
"I know, but I'll still continue to love her, or else I'll regret."
"Even if it takes me to be her 'concubine', I'm really willing to do that."
I cried, not because of anybody,
Because I didn't know love can be that generous.
She was very selfish, she didn't request a break-up or make clear with him.
He continued to be fooled by her.
He purchased a house and waiting for her heart to settle.
He proposed to her but she rejected.
She gave an excuse, saying that he was pressuring her.
This was her reason for rejecting the propose.
Isn't it ridiculous?
Finally, she wanted a break-up with him.
He found it a sudden and he couldn't take the blow.
He cried, when her reason was that he was interfering too much in her life.
He was caring enough to fetch her wherever she wanted to go,
take care of her when she was seriously ill.
And this is what he had gotten for return of a nearly-decade-relationship.
Life has to move on.
Now, the 3 of them still sit in the same room, singing the same song and the same harmony.
I don't know how they managed to face each other despite the betrayal of love.
But I do hope he can forget her and meet his perfect match in the near future.
I solemnly pray for him and may he stay happy forever.
To the both of them, I don't know what to say, I just hope betrayal for once is more than enough.
Love is selfish but it contains no betrayal and cheating of feelings.
Treasure your love and remember that
love is the most divine feeling and emotion, a human can feel and appreciate.
Where were you when skies were grey
11:49 AM <3
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Getting busy|Friday, January 18, 2008
Went to Ngee Ann's Open House yeaterday.
It wasn't as good as I expected.
I was quite disappointed in fact.
The event was disorganised and there wasn't any crowd control.
In the end, me n my frens left without even taking a look at the business corner which was fully packed with students.
The guide just briefed us on the courses for business and left.
Although there were performances and activities, i felt that the open house wasn't exciting at all.
I'm sorry if i've angered anybody in the sense that I can also see their efforts out into the event.
It was still well-done as some of the schools answered my doubts and cleared my mind.
It was a humid day though, we were sweating in air-conditioned room!
I just hope everything can turn out alright for them.
I am going to be darn busy from this week onwards.
Not because of work, but singing.
I have been going back to TAS Youth Voices last week,
and returned to my Soka Choir yeaterday for small group practice.
There are practices for both sides on Saturday and i've to rush here n there.
TAS- 12-5pm ; Soka Choir- 8-10.30pm
See?
Haha, but i still hope i can find something meaningful to do before i start school.
I may not earn as much money from work and buy laptop with my money,
but the fulfillment and contentment of singing really makes me feel happy and blissed.
I sworn to myself that i must earn lotsa money from end of Os till school starts.
But due to the situation when i only work once a week, i tink i can just sit at home and rot!
Money is not everything, but without money, there'll not be everything.
I truly believe this statement, but i cant do anything to make money appear or fall from sky.
I am just tired of waiting for work schedule and rot at home.
I may not be able to update as much so i apologise here to my faithful readers lah,
although i dunno who u are cos u ppl always nv tag!
I look forward to a new life in singing and make many more new friends in the coming days!
Where were you when skies were grey
12:31 PM <3
| d r e a m |
Lost in the world of reality|Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I am afraid of growing up, the stress and expectations of people around me...
Suddenly, I felt that there is an invisible wave of fear rushing towards me...
I have to learn how to observe people before i do or speak anything...
The impression of myself brought to people is also as crucial.
People may dislike me or look down on me due to some stupid actions i did,
I am afraid of how others look at me.
I am scared that I'm not up to standard or I am not mature enough in terms of words and actions.
I don't know how can escape from this fear of mine.
There are still alot of things that I don't know how to do or say...
I dream to be a perfect person, without any flaws or mistakes..
But that's impossible in life, i know.
Imperfection is me and i will accept it.
Where were you when skies were grey
1:37 PM <3
| d r e a m |
Open House|Sunday, January 13, 2008
Went to Temasek Poly's Open House yesterday with xin n sem.
There was a very cute guy, James who was our i-guide!
He was very nice and xi xin (he brought tissue pprs!)
He helped Sem to carry her goodie bag and helpful.
Plus, he's a Scorpio!
Wow, my perfect match!Bleahx!
But he's abit quiet lar, but overall,he's really a nice guy lor!
TP's facilities and environment had stunned me,
I'm so fascinated and dreading to go TP...
But i am not sure whether going Culinary & Catering Management is the right choice...
I'm so afraid that I might regret...
But seriously, the cafe n restaurant that was newly built was damn nice n posed!
The cafe's name is Sugarloaf, which i find it very sweet and easy to rmb.
The ToP Table was another venue that really stunned me!
The wine tasting room was absolutely fantastic!
The atmosphere and the furniture were double "wow"!
The students there were very friendly and well in giving us details of the different courses.
I didn't managed to go SP ans NYP.
Next week i'm going to Ngee Ann Poly...
Hope they won't dissapoint me!
I am working!
Haha, the first day of work was terrible, i only managed to sell abt 10 boxes of contact lenses.
The next day, i sold 43 boxes!
I am so afraid of tml!I hope i could do well!
I wanna earn money n more money!
Sometimes, I'm confused.
Is money a good thing or a bad one?
It can motivate ppl and yet ruin ppl's future...
I just hope i will feel contented enough as i grow older...
I dun wan to see myself sinking into the world of fame and money and branded stuff.
It's just too scray and difficult to pull yrself out of the money trap.
Be contented and it's enough.
Well, i'm at a loss of words.
That's all!
Where were you when skies were grey
1:16 PM <3
| d r e a m |
Awaiting job|Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Yeah! I'm working tml!
Sorry for not updating my blog since new year...
Didn't had the mood to blog anyway...
My life's been very boring...
But i'm glad i've watched 'Alvin & the chipmunks' !
Almost regretted if i didn't watch.
It's cute, funny and meaningful...
I WANT TO EARN MONEY!!!!
Staying at home really sucks...
I'll wake up at around noon time almost everyday...
And i would start watching 'Zhu Meng' dvd from 2pm to abt 4plus...
That's my life at home!
I really wanna go out!
Seriously, i've fallen sick last week of rotting at home...
Cough, flu and nearly fever!
And another thing to mention.
I'm going back to TAS.
Yah, u didn't read it wrongly...
Due to someone's urgent need for me,
I've to go back and sing...
I'm going to Soka choir too...
So i'll soon be very very busy with work and singing....
Doubt that i could still sleep until noon time!
Results are going to be released in about 2 week's time!
I'm so damn afraid and confused of where to go....
Open houses are coming up but due to work,
I tink i'll be missing some of the open houses...
Well, i hope life will be more meaningful and uptight with activities,
so i wont be able to tink of my own worries and
be over-concerned about some stuff....
I'll try hard to update as much as possible.
when my life gets abit more exciting and not boring!
haha...that's all!
Where were you when skies were grey
12:02 PM <3
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