Midnight confessions.|Saturday, November 10, 2007
Why am i still up at this hour?
Haha, I've been looking up for a suitable skin for my blog.
Initially, I wanted my blog to feel gay and bright.
But sadly,I cant find any skin that fulfill the criteria i wanted.
So i put this!
Orange and cool.
I quite of love this skin!
It gives me the tranquil and serene feel.
Although i wanted a cute cute skin,
a cool and refreshing one will do the job.
I have a strong urge of posting something meaningful
but i have no ideas of what to write.
I always loved writing long long post.
Oh, before i forget to mention.
I put Hebe's version of "She's the one" again..
I totally loved that song!
Ya, i am mad, u may tink.
For the whole afternoon,
I've been busy with finding pictures of Hebe and S.H.E!
Full of their pictures in my photobucket.
Hahas.
Admiring their beauty and success in their careers is what i do.
I'm insane, mad all over them.
My friendster, my blog, my everything.
They are my life.
Without them, i dunno how to go on living.
Wahaha, sounds crazy huh?
That's the truth.
I'll always support them no matter what.
Long live S.H.E!!!
Enough of my S.H.E rantings,
now i wanna blurt emo-ness.
I dunno what to say, seriously.
I know that's nothing sensitive going on between us.
But deep in my heart,
he still lives in that special place.
I dunno how to get rid of
him.Out of my mind, my heart.
I still cant find anyone to replace
him.
Not a suitable candidate i could find.
Is it my fate to be stuck like this forever?
I always thought i've put down everything, the past, the relationship...
I cheated myself and friends around me.
I dunno how to answer them.
I dun even know how to answer to my heart.
I pity myself.
It's just ridiculous, isn't it?
I dunno who is the person that will untie the knot in my heart.
But i dun tink it will be myself or
him.
Our love is the past,
and the present is the absence of our hearts.
the absence of
his sincerity and truthfulness.Nothing can work out.
We cant return to the happy days,
happy memories can only fade as time goes by,
not growing stronger and clearer.
I want to create a journey, not follow blindly.
But without two sincere hearts,
the journey cant be continued.
the process of the journey will never be fruitful and meaningful anymore.
I dun wan to start a broken relationship again.
I dun wan to bring injuries that will scarred onto my heart forever.
I wan a love that will possibly last a lifetime.
i just want a love that will last.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Is that so difficult to fulfill?
I can give up anything in return of a lifetime realtionship.
Even my eyesight, my hearing, my senses...
Only the heart cant be sacrificed.
Love is to feel from the heart,
not to see from the eyes,
not to hear from the sweet rantings and whisperings,
not to smell the fragrance and scent of another's body.
Love can be so difficult to define,
people tend to take it for granted and
miss its strong powers of obssesion and possession.
Hurt will then come and hatred follows.
Why is it always like this?
Why cant a relationship end with happiness?
Maybe God makes fate seemed so easy and endings hard to accept
and so people dunno how to cherish and treasure.
it's a lesson that most of us cant managed to pass even we failed loads of times.
Cherishing is hard to learn, letting go is hard to accomplish.
Do think again.
Where were you when skies were grey
12:46 AM <3
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