wad should i do?|Friday, September 14, 2007
It'd been a long time since i blogged.
1 week le bah...
Lots of things had happened over the past 1 week.
Getting back my results is one major one, although i didn't consider that important at all.
haha.
anyway, i improved quite alot compared to mid-year exam.
english- B4 (finally!)
higher chinese- B3 (super disappointed..)
combined humanities- E8 (die liao lar...)
biology- B4 (must buck up!!)
chemistry- B3 (yeah!)
physics- C6 (it's a miracle tat i've passed!)
emath- B4 (lots of careless mistakes!)
amath- F9 (no hope liao..)
i only failed 2 subjects lor...
or should i say, die liao, failed 2 subjects leh!!!
haha...
either way i'm quite relieved lah..
at least i got improvement.
just pray hard i can do much more better for O level bah.
have to work very very hard lor..
but scare i no motivation to do that lah.
last time i felt tat there was a kind of motivation tat encouraged to study n do my very best in exam.
but now, the feeling is gone.
looks like i've to find the feeling back.
or else, my results will remain in this state.
can go either here and there.
Jiajun is helping me with English,
Weijie is helping Amath.
I just hoped that i wouldn't disappoint them.
I nearly wanted to drop Physics, but the prelim returned the hope for me.
Surprisely, i passed with a low grade though.
I have lots to catch up on in this short period of one mth plus.
Hope there's another miracle to save me.
He's irritating.
I know i shouldn't say this but he's really getting on my nerves.
I cant stand his paranoid-ness.
Always sms me mushy messages and keep asking me basic things like eating dinner.
He even asked my friend to add him on msn and gave my friend his number.
Saying tat he needs ADVICES.
Duh, wad kind of advices does he need anyway?
Obviously, he's trying to interfere into my privacy and feelings.
Wad he's doing now, really irritates me.
At first, I think he's one guy who is good to me and cares alot for me.
But now, it seems like he's not caring anymore but overconcerned till a terrible stage of annoyance.
My good impression of him is being totally wiped out now.
I can tell him in his face that, YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT ME!!!
I'll never let myself drop into this endless pit of mental tortures.
I am harsh but he's just too much.
Stop counting down and don't irritate me any further!
I don't wish anyone pop out into my life and mess up my life at this crucial point of time!
I've had enough i supposed.
Tired of all these...
I'll continue to stay single till my Mr. Right appears.
The first look determines everything.
I believe in deep affinity.
Sometimes, love cannot be forced.
It'll come naturally, nothing can stop its arrival.
My heart still hasn't give up on him bah, i believe.
I believe he'll return one day.
i can't do without him, life seemed so meaningless without him.
Really meaningless, thinking of those days we went exploring new places together;
roaming around the small island freely and happily...
Sweet memories are priceless.
I'm afraid one day i'll have memory loss and forget all these happy memories.
I'm having STM now...
So i'm just afraid the day will come...
I can lose anything but memories.
They are precious and nothing can replace them.
Everything i did with him, every moment i'd spent with him...
I still tresure them alot, hope he do treasure them too.
I am being very indecisive and it hurts many people.
I'm sorry but that's nothing i could do.
I do hope that everything goes well and no one will be hurt in the end.
Bless all.
Where were you when skies were grey
7:38 PM <3
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