Insane.|Sunday, May 06, 2007
Do u know what someone will do if he/she goes mad? U should have a try of getting insane...It was yesterday when i really had the feeling of insanity. I was lying on bad with some of my Physics stuff lar..i was like slacking the whole day lor...trying to get Physics de stuff into my mind...den my BLOODY hell sister was hitting the table with her drum sticks for percussion...PURPOSELY...i was listening to music at the same time from the computer...i tink she was angry with me for not letting her play audition...so she did that...i was trying veryvery very hard to CONCENTRATE....and i told myself to TAHAN...but i lost...i lost my temperand went insane.
I grabbed a belt and went out of the room and whacked my sister right at her face...i tink she wasn't aware of my presence. I caught her by surprise bah...She defended and hit me back with her sticks....I whacked and whacked non-stop...with my mind clearly conscious...i guessed i knew what i was doing was TOTALLY WRONG...but i couldnt stop...i WAILED upon hitting her...i couldnt stand it...i screamed and wailed so loudly that i broke down...i felt a sharp grasp of pain...my sister ran away and fell to my bed...and found out that i had injured my finger...my nail was so long that it nearly chipped off from the inner part while i was whacking with the belt...it was bleeding in the nail...hurt alot...still got blue-black inside lor...lol...this is the first time that i did something so insane....and out of my mind...
I guess i AM REALLY STRESSED UP bah....I AM!!! i dunno what to do...nothing gets into my mind even i sit there mugging for more than an hour...god it really driving me crazy...wahahaa...i tink for the rest of the subjects i will really dead bah...whatever...i dun wanna care anymore....
Today i went back to SGM Renaissance Choir...everyone was happy that i am back...but it feels abit strange...like everyone is more conserved towards me...but still glad to see them...sang old songs and a new mexican song..nice rhythm....then after dismissal...we went for lunch cos later at 2pm there was another practice for the kids....including my dumb dumb brother....haha...all the kids seemed so tiny lor...all very quiet and reserved...wahaha....but their voices quite okay lar...teacher let us watched some videos on singing choral music...nice...there was a French boys youth choir in the movie...wow...it was fantastic! The solo boy's voice was so angelic and sweet lor!!! Pray hard that one day i could sing like him...haha....wish that day will really come true...
hahaha...nothing more bah...just pray hard i wouldnt go insane again...omg...kk lar...time for me to mug again...slack too at the same time...bye, all the best for exams...
Where were you when skies were grey
6:11 PM <3
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