Spendthrift,is tat me?|Saturday, April 14, 2007
I think i am not as spendthrifty as i had described myself as.....i bought a new CASIO watch and a new bag today...spent about nearly 50bucks....to u it may be a small sum...but to me, it costs me the last bit of my pay le lor...sad...but i get to buy what i wan...still very happy lar...mum screamed at me for wasting so much money...paiseh...i gonna be broke very very soon...
Zelzel asked me a question in the noon today..."Do u wish to have a boyfren now?" Of course, it is a 'YES' lar...still have to ask meh....haha...but not as despo lar...just feeling very kou xu these days without a bf....my phone almost can go into hibernation for a week...jus feel very sian and so lonely...it's just sad lar...not to the extend of flirting lor..i would never do tat...maybe i will consider being single for my whole life, as in not to get married....in this way i wouldnt be financially burdened....haha...can lead a peaceful life...but deep down my heart there will always be an empty space...it can never be filled...the lack of love makes me lose my motivation too..should i say tat? i literally gave up doing homework....exhausted by the tedious timetable every week...remedials after remedials..facing strangers everywhere i go....no one to speak my mind to...it's a scaring feeling...imagine everyone in this world speaks english and you're the only speaks chinese or other mother tongue? this analogy may sounds weird lor...it's difficult to describe the feeling...leading my life messily...dun even know the purpose of doing homework and exams...i am just too tired of all these....give me a break!
Where were you when skies were grey
8:57 PM <3
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