Studying on Saturdays....|Saturday, January 20, 2007
Haha...I just have to buck up on my studies...after going out with Ting Shien n Hong Wei today, I just realised I'm so out of their world lar....Hong Wei kept pointing out my msian accent when I spoke English..lol...Den both of them kept boasting about themselves lar...Just cant stand them...But i think we're still as good as before...there's no communication gap between us lar...Only at some parts where they jus talked about their schoolmates n stuff about the school....well i cant avoid tat...jus listen lor...no choice mah..but also a good way of getting information of their school on their academic-wise areas..haha...they both very good in their add-math n physics so jus ask them to help lor...without paying them lar...but they can also come out and revise their work with me mah....its killing two birds with one stone...hahha....its jus great lar going out with them...i enjoyed so much...they both also very helpful de lor...help me carry my heavy bag n library books...if not i gonna be shortened by a few centimetres again...haha...thanks alot to u both!
Sometimes, I feel very stupid and childish in front of my old pri sch mates who mostly from better secondary schools...I dun mean my school is not good lar...but really, environment really helps to sculpher our character and self-being...those ppl from better sec schs like RI, Hwa Chong, St. Nicholas etc....you can really notice their great change after being there for at least one year...wow its just amazing lar...but i jus hope to be myself...jus have to adapt to other ppl's changing character...hee...i'm a superb chamelon in interacting with ppl....lol...but i've just lost a good fren or can i say is a best fren bah....well sometimes my principles made me lose precious things but i still uphold to my principles cos i believe in them...trust is the most important principle in my life...if a person cant be trusted...its no use talking to him...
Well, i can say i still cant adapt to the school life without the seniors...I think i rely alot on Colin, Jiajun, Junyang they all....when i have problems they're always the first ones i will go to..for advices....really thanked them alot....i missed them so much lor.......now...i have no one to speak my mind to...its jus a feeling of loneliness....i cant helped it...i start to keep things to myself again...i dunno how to release them...jus cos i'm too emotional abt things...it kills me...i cant do things properly...things jus get out of hand and uncontrollable....
I really someone to talk to...be it a stranger or not...i'm heaping myself with too much things le....its too tiring...i think i jus haven grow up...still an inmature teen...felt so ashamed to tell ppl tat i'm 17 liao....i need motivation lar.......help me!
Where were you when skies were grey
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