should i or should i not?|Wednesday, August 02, 2006
alot of people said i looked depressed nowadays...i wonder why...cos of my studies bah...or is it him? i dunno...there maybe alot of reasons...but to me...everything is the reason now...firstly i had my chinese project done halfway...that was a thing that i used to
trouble myself and everyone alot...
finally there is a way out...i'm glad...
he has been unhappy...is it bcos of me?
i seemed to be stopping him from going out with his frens and brothers...i'm very confused...i dun wan to do tis...but i always feel lonely when i see him with his frens and brothers...he seemed to forgetting me...that's what i feel...and whenever he asks me if i'm angry with him..i'll say no even if i am really angry with him...
my frens realised that whenever i'm with him i'll be damn quiet and looking very depressed...but after he's out of sight..
i'll be back crazy...is it?
maybe bah...well...he's stressed up...shld i jus let him go? if that's the only possible way out...i have to...hazel said he's been very good to me...i cant feel it...i dunno why...i cant sense the happiness in me whenever i'm with him...huiyi n shawn , huixuan n mashmallow...they're really sweet in my eyes...even sem who always said i'm so xing fu...she herself is giving a surprise to gz on his bdae..that's so sweet of her..shawn is always there for huiyi too...even ran up to cwp jus to buy an ice-cream for her...
he nv do that before...i tink..in my memory at least...
i may have short term memory but not tat serious lol...
he nv realised his mistake bah...huixuan...shawn..both had told him but still he dun admit it and denied...
keep tinking that the way he treat me is right...
well if that's the way he tinks..i cant change him...
i always thought we could get it thru tis time...
but i'm wrong...
tis cant only depend on me...
his heart is the most important...
he lacks sincerity bah...
i cant care so much now...
i'm getting depression...
i lose all my faith n strength...
why is history repeating tiself again n again?
cant history jus stop?
cant u let me rest?
why cant u undarstand me?
two years and three mths...
isn't it long enough?
for u to know me?
for u to realise ur mistakes?
i'm wrong too...i admit...
but at least i tried to change it...
did u?
ever?
u're always the right one...
that's what u tink...
but u're not...
advices are for heeding
and not for ignoring...
if u insist the way...
i have nothing to say...
Where were you when skies were grey
7:43 PM <3
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